INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Put your MP3 player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the NEXT button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY
Long Long Journey
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
The Big Chair
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Dumb (haha!!!)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Blossom
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
The Ocean
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Sara
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Talk to Me
WHAT IS 2+2?
So Like a Rose
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Me and a Gun
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Superhero (interesting)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
10th Man Down
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Dance of Eternity
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Ladybird
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Beautiful Girl
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Warm Ways
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
I Ran
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Reconsider Me
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
You are my Love
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
I Can't See New York
HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Power
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Nightbird
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Do Do Do, Da Da Da
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Good Enough (wow...)
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Stellar
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
What Is Love (wow again...)
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Love me Two Times
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Bless the Child
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Glory Box (haha!)
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Fish Out of Water
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Back to Me... Again...
So the past week sucked, I lost a few pounds from it all, hopefully I can be semi-normal now that he seems to be trying again. Assuming that lasts. Hoping that lasts... I know I shouldn't depend on him so much to feel good about myself. I'm working on it.
It's spring now and I have things to do!
1.) Practice my hooping!!!
2.) Practice spinning my poi.
3.) Practice belly dance more like I used to.
4.) Start jogging with the walking and do new forms of exercises.
5.) Get a mountain bike and start doing that a couple times a week.
6.) Find some good hiking trails that are semi-close by.
The probably boring for you part... but big for me...
7.) BIG ONE - Talking to my mom and trying to work out becoming a real estate appraiser. Because I have done this her in the past, I might be able to get my license in NJ where she works, and transfer it up here, which would be quicker than if I just did it up here because she can give me more and better hours so I can take my state test sooner... like within the year. So, I have to do my 75 hours of coursework which I can do online to get my provisional license, get my 2500 hours of experience, which will be kept track of by my mom, since I already have experience from the apprecticeship I started with her a few years ago, it'll make less time for me to be able to get my license. I already know a lot of how to appraise the house, it's just the computer program, some lingo, and some legal stuff I need to learn. From what my mom said, once I finish the coursework, it's just studying for the state test thats a pain, but the rest is pretty easy because the computer program does all of the math for you.
I still want to do permanent makeup but this might be more realistic for now. I've always liked doing this with my mom too. Plus, once I'm licensed and getting work, I can work from home, and make my own hours (within reason), which will be great once it comes time to have kids and stuff. My mom makes pretty good money doing it too. I like jobs where the harder you work, the more money you make.
The coursework, which I have to do first for the provisional license, is only about $800 which is way less than the permanent makeup class, which is about $4500. I have the money for the coursework classes now, so as soon as I figure out how my mom and I could possibly do this, I'm doing that.
Back to normal crap.
Sometimes I wonder if once I have a decent career and a kid or two, I'll be more able to be happy and relax because I won't feel like I'm on some clock anymore. I can't help but think I won't be as dependant on a guy to feel good about myself anymore either. It seems the more independant I am, the more independant I become... It makes sense to me.
I do need more confidence in myself and other people though. Like the Depeche Mode quote...
"I hope you learn to trust, have faith in both of us, and keep room in your heart for two."
Well, that's me.
Got the sex twice in the past day though. Good stuff. Though, it's been so long and few and far between that I am sore for the first time in a really long time from the sex we had last night.
Trying to be more positive and have more belief in myself. There's no way I am regressing to how I was when I was with Paul.
Done for now.
It's spring now and I have things to do!
1.) Practice my hooping!!!
2.) Practice spinning my poi.
3.) Practice belly dance more like I used to.
4.) Start jogging with the walking and do new forms of exercises.
5.) Get a mountain bike and start doing that a couple times a week.
6.) Find some good hiking trails that are semi-close by.
The probably boring for you part... but big for me...
7.) BIG ONE - Talking to my mom and trying to work out becoming a real estate appraiser. Because I have done this her in the past, I might be able to get my license in NJ where she works, and transfer it up here, which would be quicker than if I just did it up here because she can give me more and better hours so I can take my state test sooner... like within the year. So, I have to do my 75 hours of coursework which I can do online to get my provisional license, get my 2500 hours of experience, which will be kept track of by my mom, since I already have experience from the apprecticeship I started with her a few years ago, it'll make less time for me to be able to get my license. I already know a lot of how to appraise the house, it's just the computer program, some lingo, and some legal stuff I need to learn. From what my mom said, once I finish the coursework, it's just studying for the state test thats a pain, but the rest is pretty easy because the computer program does all of the math for you.
I still want to do permanent makeup but this might be more realistic for now. I've always liked doing this with my mom too. Plus, once I'm licensed and getting work, I can work from home, and make my own hours (within reason), which will be great once it comes time to have kids and stuff. My mom makes pretty good money doing it too. I like jobs where the harder you work, the more money you make.
The coursework, which I have to do first for the provisional license, is only about $800 which is way less than the permanent makeup class, which is about $4500. I have the money for the coursework classes now, so as soon as I figure out how my mom and I could possibly do this, I'm doing that.
Back to normal crap.
Sometimes I wonder if once I have a decent career and a kid or two, I'll be more able to be happy and relax because I won't feel like I'm on some clock anymore. I can't help but think I won't be as dependant on a guy to feel good about myself anymore either. It seems the more independant I am, the more independant I become... It makes sense to me.
I do need more confidence in myself and other people though. Like the Depeche Mode quote...
"I hope you learn to trust, have faith in both of us, and keep room in your heart for two."
Well, that's me.
Got the sex twice in the past day though. Good stuff. Though, it's been so long and few and far between that I am sore for the first time in a really long time from the sex we had last night.
Trying to be more positive and have more belief in myself. There's no way I am regressing to how I was when I was with Paul.
Done for now.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Yoga Cat Lady = Me
Maybe I'll become one of those women who use things like yoga and exercise to get through life semi-happy. I'll need lots of cats too, of course.
It's becoming obvious that no guy will ever make me happy, and I'm not gay, so there needs to be some type of in-between. Perhaps a co-dependant friend, lots of cats, exercise (gotta love those endorphins), and lots of new hobbies... which I'll start but never finish.
I guess I'll always find things in people that will make me not entirely happy with them. I see through the attention whores, and then they just look stupid, so the moment a guy is around they aren't my friend as much as they are trying to get my boyfriend's attention, which of course will happen, because they are new and exciting and I'm old news.
It's officially Saturday, so it has been one week and 6 days since I last had sex with the man who claims to still be attracted to me. Wearing my hair down at home again worked for like a week or two, but he's used to that again. It's too cold to dress cute. I'm out of ideas for now. I hint. A lot. It goes ignored. I know he sees it, but he pretends not to. No one who is that good at reading people doesn't get the hint. Srsly.
I'm slowly going toward that ready to stop trying mode because I am just running out of ideas, and it sucks that I have to try so hard to get my own boyfriend's attention. It not only sucks, but it's just fucking wrong. I have good looking men tell me all the time how they'd never get tired of me... then again I think they all say that to get what they want, then once they do, they couldn't care less. HE should be trying for ME! I'm a fucking proverbial catch! Heehee... I amuse myself.
Fuck! I'm sick of dreaming about sex because I'm not getting it. 2 days in a row now. At this point, I think he'd rather smack it to porn or just not get it at all then have to deal with doing it with me. He hasn't given me an orgasm in over 3 months. If that doesn't prove how much he cares, I don't know what does... /sarcasm.
It might be time to start buying toys again.
It's becoming obvious that no guy will ever make me happy, and I'm not gay, so there needs to be some type of in-between. Perhaps a co-dependant friend, lots of cats, exercise (gotta love those endorphins), and lots of new hobbies... which I'll start but never finish.
I guess I'll always find things in people that will make me not entirely happy with them. I see through the attention whores, and then they just look stupid, so the moment a guy is around they aren't my friend as much as they are trying to get my boyfriend's attention, which of course will happen, because they are new and exciting and I'm old news.
It's officially Saturday, so it has been one week and 6 days since I last had sex with the man who claims to still be attracted to me. Wearing my hair down at home again worked for like a week or two, but he's used to that again. It's too cold to dress cute. I'm out of ideas for now. I hint. A lot. It goes ignored. I know he sees it, but he pretends not to. No one who is that good at reading people doesn't get the hint. Srsly.
I'm slowly going toward that ready to stop trying mode because I am just running out of ideas, and it sucks that I have to try so hard to get my own boyfriend's attention. It not only sucks, but it's just fucking wrong. I have good looking men tell me all the time how they'd never get tired of me... then again I think they all say that to get what they want, then once they do, they couldn't care less. HE should be trying for ME! I'm a fucking proverbial catch! Heehee... I amuse myself.
Fuck! I'm sick of dreaming about sex because I'm not getting it. 2 days in a row now. At this point, I think he'd rather smack it to porn or just not get it at all then have to deal with doing it with me. He hasn't given me an orgasm in over 3 months. If that doesn't prove how much he cares, I don't know what does... /sarcasm.
It might be time to start buying toys again.
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