Yoga Cat Lady = Me

Maybe I'll become one of those women who use things like yoga and exercise to get through life semi-happy. I'll need lots of cats too, of course.

It's becoming obvious that no guy will ever make me happy, and I'm not gay, so there needs to be some type of in-between. Perhaps a co-dependant friend, lots of cats, exercise (gotta love those endorphins), and lots of new hobbies... which I'll start but never finish.

I guess I'll always find things in people that will make me not entirely happy with them. I see through the attention whores, and then they just look stupid, so the moment a guy is around they aren't my friend as much as they are trying to get my boyfriend's attention, which of course will happen, because they are new and exciting and I'm old news.

It's officially Saturday, so it has been one week and 6 days since I last had sex with the man who claims to still be attracted to me. Wearing my hair down at home again worked for like a week or two, but he's used to that again. It's too cold to dress cute. I'm out of ideas for now. I hint. A lot. It goes ignored. I know he sees it, but he pretends not to. No one who is that good at reading people doesn't get the hint. Srsly.

I'm slowly going toward that ready to stop trying mode because I am just running out of ideas, and it sucks that I have to try so hard to get my own boyfriend's attention. It not only sucks, but it's just fucking wrong. I have good looking men tell me all the time how they'd never get tired of me... then again I think they all say that to get what they want, then once they do, they couldn't care less. HE should be trying for ME! I'm a fucking proverbial catch! Heehee... I amuse myself.

Fuck! I'm sick of dreaming about sex because I'm not getting it. 2 days in a row now. At this point, I think he'd rather smack it to porn or just not get it at all then have to deal with doing it with me. He hasn't given me an orgasm in over 3 months. If that doesn't prove how much he cares, I don't know what does... /sarcasm.

It might be time to start buying toys again.