Busy, Stiff Neck, Feel Like Making Something New

I have work tonight. I haven't gotten any new jobs or shifts yet. I need something. I'm thinking about going to the casinos on Thursday to look for jobs in the many resturants and bars they have there. I see opening for places in the casinos all the time on Craigslist. Some of those restaurants are nice, so to get in to one of them could be nice. Especially bartending.

I actually ended being a bit busier than anticipated last week and didn't make any fun new raw recipes. I might be able to on Thursday. I hope I can on Thursday. I need nut milk bags so I can make almond milk, and have the left over almond pulp to make almond flour to make some raw chocolate chip cookies.

The Boy and I did a little hike in the woods before work on Saturday. I was pretty down and he noticed and got me to start talking. Then I cried. I talked about everything on my mind lately, and how I've been feeling. I've been so out of it. It's weird because it seems like ever since I cried, I've been waking back up from a week or two long deep sleep or something. It felt like I was looking at everything through someone else's tired eyes. I figured it's either depression or something isn't right inside of me. That cry really helped though. He really helped me feel better too. Things just feel so hopeless right now. I'm tired of worrying.

I've been worrying more and more every day since I got fired about bills. Now I'm starting school for nails, and even though my mom said she'd help, I'm not sure she's going to help the way I might need if I don't get another job soon. So, job hunting Thursday will most likely take place. Casinos here I come!

Yesterday the Boy and I went to a couple flea markets, and I got two big freezer bags of embroidery thread for $7. I also got 4 books, which were only about a dollar each. Yay! I love flea markets. Afte rthat we had dinner at his mom's. We had pot roast and freash corn on the cob. I love corn. I'm trying to get myself tired of it before corn season ends. I think I'm having more today :)

My neck has been really stiff for the past week or so now. It keeps leading to a headache by the end of the day. I don't want to take excedrin every day. By the way it feels now, I'm going to need one later.