Stressed

I have an interview tomorrow. I'm probably too excited and hopeful about it. I'm afraid to get my hopes up too much about anything anymore. It's for an esthetician job at a spa that is opening at the end of this month or the beginning of October. So by the time that happens I should have basic manicures and pedicures under my belt and I can do those too. I might wander around the area and try to apply to some other places. I'd like to stay close by if I'm not doing skin care, I'd like to save the money on gas.

I really hope things start turning around soon. It still feels like everything is going wrong since I moved up here. I was so close to being caught up on things via money, and thats when I get fired from one of my jobs. The Boy made it known that it's not his fault we're behind on rent this month. He didn't say it was my fault, but it's not his, and it doesn't seem to matter that I've helped out way more in the past months when he was behind. Plus the fact I'd paid our phone bill for the past 5 months. Thats an extra $500-$600 I would have (and probably saved some of) if he paid his half of the bill. I gave him extra for rent last month, and gave extra money toward his end of the first month when we moved in in June on top of the deposit I did on my own. At least I know I should get that back when we go, and it will be mine. It sucks seeing how he thinks that way sometimes. When he's behind it's ok, because normally I'm the resposible one that can actually save money and save the day, but now when I'm behind it's not ok. I really hope that once I get some nail school experience I can get a job I enjoy for the first time in years. I applied to about 20 jobs today online.

I've got to say, there are a lot of things I'd like to buy in time for Samhain, plus I want to try spinning classes, try out the rock gym in manchester, and I want to be able to go a little nuts in Whole Foods one of these days so I can have everything I need for some of the raw recipes I want to try. I want hiking shoes in time for spring of next year as well, but I have a little time for that.

I finally set up my altar today. I unwrapped a lot of my better gemstones and placed them all over the place. I always like to have some near my plants. I swear, it makes them grow faster. I have my big awesome amethyst cluster near my freshly planted seeds in the window sill. Theres a big quartz I found in Maine there too. I think I need to recharge my jade ring.

I get to be alone again tomorrow night. This was nice, and I'm looking forward to it again tomorrow. I do miss my alone time. I didn't realize how much until recently.

Ok, time for seepies :)